Happy DOng ZHi~ WEll.. Whenever a festival comes, it makes me feel time goes pass real fast.. TOday we went to do offerings to grandparents, go orchard, bugis & chinatown for the whole day.. DEAd~! GoodNight..

PS: so touched to received christmas card from peggy.. Aww.....

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yOu sounded like a witch.. YEw.. STop that tone of yours.. so what you have to support me.. That's your responsible.. so don't try to make it sound as if you are doing something you don't have to and make the other sound bad.. Everyone has a different story, i can understand your plight but don't go too far bcuz there should be a limit.. Things will eventually go beyond control so smart up~!

Didn't get to watch STARS AWARDS 2006 due to being away.. It's a pity that i missed it.. Happy to know that tomorrow will be the encore.. But will i get the chance to watch it? I doubt.. Cause im going Orchard with dAd.. If so, i probably have to rush back.. Then it wouldn't be nice then.. HEee... ANyway... im SOOoo glAD dat Vincent n FionA got in.. YiPpeee...! Though i didn't vote for them, i sincerely wish they will get in.. CUz They RaWwkk Sooo muCH! anyway.. Really got to exercise tml.. TERrible.. Im getting FAttER.... CANNOTTtt!!! i must join a sports CCA & mAintain my GOLD For NAPFA!

Hey pple.. Guess i should announce that im going ijc.. haha.. heard that joseph, yong yuan, chze hao going.. anyway, i'll only update next week on the photos i took in hong kong and china.. SO sTAY tuNE!!! hahhaaa.... just connected a wireless broadband connection! wOotx..

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ys coming my hse now.. currently there's a v bitter taste in my tongue.. the antibiotics im taking.. yew........... haiz.... oh ya.. im food poisoned.. terrible...... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH................................. i vomitted, diarrhoea.. argh.. do not wan to elaborate le.... i got fever too.. yeW!~ being sick is the worst of all........

haiz/.. i vommitted.. this is crazy

yupz.. im finally back from malaysia.. next trip 7-15dec hong kong, 29-31dec malaysia! muahahaa..

sth to update... first time i stayed up so late, it was till 5 plus in the morning without sleep.. all were fun, playing, gaming, movie marathorn.. LOlx.. i really can't describe it.... hmm...

FIrst day--- reached at 1 plus, lunch wif them, den go back settle abit, went sshopping to find levin but guess what.. when we going to the cashier he went to break.. ARGHHhh... den dad bought the happy feet movie... i must say it's total crap.. how can it be the top in the box office? this must be crazy........ it's just a pathetic dancing penguine.. I HATE CARTOON.. dun ever ask me to go watch such movies... utter n0nsense.. den went to the beach all dat.. ok.. did i repeat wat i said b4? i think so.. anyway.. went back settle down, oNLINE!!! HAHAhaa.................... at 12.30, we went to fetch levin n went for supper... sliced chicken noodles, wanton mee.. bought for the whole family.. HAHAa

SEcond day--- i actually woke up at 11 plus.. arrhhh.... think i was too tired cux i slept at 4 plus.. ya lo.. den afternoon we went wen quan.. dad, me, hui, d.h, yang, 5th aunt, small uncle, small uncle wife, uncle turtle n sis.. and also hui's friend, bf, siblings.. HAHA.... jus to say, hot water is not for me... i only went to the warm one despite others attempt.. YEW...

after that we went to eat seafood.... HHAa... asam fish, cripsy fish, sotong n prawn in chilli padi, OYSTER EGG, dat dunno wat vege.. Hmm.. den we went along the shore.. n i can tell u... the scenery is magnificient... especially with pple whom mean alot to u........ the sea birds, little crabs, sea shells........ all these, i will never forget... also, the playgrd... we were as if like little kids, but young in the heart of cuz... haha

back den, went to uncle turtle hse.. well.. just a nick name.. he has more than 20 turtles of diff species, fishes of 6 tanks or more... a gu zi li..? like a dog or fox like animal.. den an owl? my god.... going to faint...... prawns wateva.. name it... was so tired den dat i fell asleep... with the loud speaker, bass n everything on? heehee.... den went shopping again... -.- den den den... supper................... carrot cake, ci cheong fun, laksa, porridge, fish balls noodles, carrot mike shake, otah! hahaa...... going to increase weight v soon.... went back levin n xian helped me wif maple story... den we cheong until 10 level.. IT WAS 3 plus dEn........ after that, levin n me watch death note until 5.30am... -.-

n guess wat.. i woke up at 8 plus cuz the kids knocked n kicked the door so hardly to disturb us.. YAWNnnnnn...... levin woke up onli at 11 plus.. HAHAa.... he was scolding xian? hmm.. cuz he sleeping we went play com again... nn xian keep switching on the music n talk loudly.. so afraid sooner or later he going to smack him seh... HAHAHA...

hmm... downloading maple story now... dun wan to continue my story... if wan me to elab, i will be glad to tell more.. HAHaaaaaa... but personal account... shan't put it herE =)

Fairy in wonderland starting in 15 mins time.. i better fold the clothes, read my newspaper, tidy everything up... if not i'll going to be in troublE! ARgh.. n the singnet thing... i wonder if they have withdrew my termination request.. haTE it.. all bcuz of one time mistake dat give me all these problems~

PS: for a moment, im currently unavailable.... let me live in my own world

Lol.. im now in MUAR... Hahaa.... first time online overseas ehhh..

ok.. woke up at 7 plus, reached here at 2plus? YUPx.. den went lunch with dad, aunt, cousin huihui, n yang x2... ate homemade noodles and yi mee for me cuz im tooo hungry already... they are too small proportions!!! hahaa.. rm2 dollars per bowl only.. Heehee..

Oh well.. den we went THE STORE to find cousin levin... he's working as the cashier! hmm... but guess what.. in the end, when we decided to pay, he went for his break... ARGH.. have to wait for him till midnight till he's back... HaiXx... den uncle n cousin xian went to work too.. SAd... anyway.. we bought happy feet dvd to watch..i actually wanted death note but dad didn't want... Hmmm.. ok lorx.. ANything.. HAIXXXxxx... Haaa... we went to the beach... still the same as before.. nth much has changed.....

going back on monday... wonder what will i be doing for these days.. hMmm...

My heart aches at the thought of you.. Right now I confused about us and have no idea what to do.. Your painful words play over and over in my head which makes it harder to forget them but easirer to think of them.. Although my heart cries, my eyes won't let me.. Instead, my mind replays thoughts of me and you... And it hurts that we can't be what we used to.. Because the statement remains true, that, confused and lonely me is all i have now... Because no one else cares, I thought i had someone.. But contrary to my surprise, you were never there..

Incidents of the past make me question why? Why did i forgive you.. Why do i love you.. Why didn't i know what to do... All my anger shows through my face.. As i look into your eyes with hurt, sadness and fear.. Because our relationship is not at its best place.. But yet i shed not one tear.. I won't let myself cry.. Because you will see.. Then what will you think of me?

For the fear of crying is too overwhelming to bear.. But in all reality, i must let it out.. ALthough, my mind gives me a reason to care.. Crying shows weakness.. And WEAK AM I NOT...But lately.. i have been proving myself wrong... And now silly me is all i got... People say crying releases the devils in you.. I must be becoming an angel for the devils in me are coming out one by one.....

If only he could see me now, a grin would be set across my face... If only he knew my pain, i woul find his comforts to be lame... If he could only see this now, with his magic black heart, i'd ask him to be dead... As day melts into night, i hope you will slowly decay from my heart and mind.. I thought i loved you once but i can never do feel it again..

You're shallow
cruel
adorable
lovable
I hate you....

So many ways to describe you, but i don't care anymore.. Because now that you're gone, I am FREE...

my hse is in a total disaster...... main room worse than the haze.. living room like genting highland la..... im practically breathing in dust....... -.-... emphysema.. bronchitis... lung cancer liao... hahaa.. jus made myself sushi to eaT!

this morning, darrell pang seh us? lolx.. in the end jog with yong cheng.. he's so fast man.. still say he long time no train...... in the end run faster than me.. more than half the canal i can say..... YAwn.. terrible.. noise, air pollution.... am i able to survive for 3 days of thesE? still have alot of cleaning up n packing to do.......... >>.<<........ fainting..

thurs night shall be the interview.. wish me luck~

wootx.. went to bugis with geet... den yi qing, yeele n meiqi caught us twice.. SHOCKeD.. LOLXx.... today is really an enjoyable time... and we did our first manicurE! LolxXxx....... and really spent alot money of cux... Heeeheee... most importantly we got the presentS!

morning went jogging with zhichiaw, suat.. darrell couldn't make it and yong cheng didn't want to jog that early.. -.-''' lolx... hmm.... going for an interview tml.. most likely.. YEAHz...

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Another tear to cry
another feeling of pain
another day to pass
and still i sit and cry over you
should be over
it should have moved on
but soon it will be the day
that they came and said you were gone.
didnt get to say goodbye
didnt get the chance for one last hug.
you were gone within the blink of an eye
my dear old best friend and a few years are gone
but still the pain cuts through me like a knife.
please give me the sign to move on
please help me to find my path again
because i've drifted again and im feeling cold and lost
sc. i miss u.

This is my goodbye letter, i sign "with love" and my name, hoping you'll send me some love; wherever i go...these are my few words of departure, goodbye goodbye, i'll miss you... these last four years have meant the world, best friends forever we said, and for us, forever ends here.my letter left on the bed,where i once wrote, wept, laid sleeplessly, thinking of the day, when our memories is all i can take. our laughs growing fainter, i cannot leave now.my hand is leaving; out of reach now, reaching, helplessly; i cannot let go, best friends forever we said, what ever happened to that?my dear friends; this is where we end up after the years,no more laughing, crying out the tears, knowing this dreadful day grows near,where Fate decided to tear our hearts in two.My only words of farewell are...never forget the beauty of our friendship the sound of our laughter. for that, my friends, has made us the wonderful beings we stand as today. best friends forever we said, forever is over....

suat came earlier this morning to transfer photos n burn cds.. Lolx.. we took a very long time deleting and all dat.. heex.. yaya.. n we watched hunter x hunter while waiting..

n finally, the room is rented to a indo chi girl aged 22 called helen.. same surname as me.. not bad for the impression i must say.. aahaa.. better than some others........ surely, no age gap n more link.. Lol.....

today our neighbour's daughter got married, we went for the buffet later on.. DEn off we went to orchard... HAHAaa.....

Things i have bought--
1) a black skirt for events
2) a bubble beige skirt
3) my first heels (gold)
4) nail polish (purple)
5) winnie pooh sb (red & blacK)

LOLzzz..... shop like hell from 3pm to 9pm.. reached home at 10 plus.. YAWN... tomorrow mum's going back again...... lucky i'll be going out with dad...... BUt not to say, yet another shopping or walking trip.. -.-'''

there came a ridiculous housing agent charging to our house n ended up having an arguement with mum.. TOtal crap.. i got nothing to say..There she was saying,'' i wan to give my daughter a good environment..'' den he was saying,'' is not the problem.. THey are graduates who behave very well..'' Age gap i think... WHich i always think we have.. now i can onli tolerate n let her be.. cuz i can't afford to offend her.. Anyway... she's now grumbling to me about that.. haix... sian.. what really flared her up was that he said'' i no u are a one parent family, i can understand..''' HAHaahaa.. funny la.. N he got all the scoldings n that...... AND YA.. he spoke vulgarities.. HAha.. dAt's good.. Don't rent even better.. i can have the room.. =)

IJC.. my first choice..! i dun wan fight for jjc cuz very risky.. and all along, i dun really like de school.. not to say the thing abt seeing same old pple.. pjc, ermz.. too old.. flood...... no cca appealing... nNOoo tHankx... Went ijc yesterday, it is juz situated beside sss... Not bad.. they have swiimming lessons during pe there....Hmmm.. Was attracted with the china studies, the new humans subject in 2007.. Well..not really sure if i will go for it.. but i will get more info first.. heee.... also, they have dragon boat, bowling, snooker all dat.. CheeRleADer? maybe.. abit interested.. but i must first lose weight! haha.. dragon boat also must lose weight first...

15 mins walk from mrt.. can lo.. treat as exercise.. then go home dun need le.. add up to 30 mins per day plus standing in the train? HAhaa.. i wan take up more than 1 cca... ya.. n i will consider lots n lots.. but first.. building up of stamina..! Hmm... but lucky i stick to my jogging regime... and of cuz swimming too..! a very good way of toning n maintaining stamina.........

oh well.... tml going orchard with mum cuz she haven't buy enough! Hahaa... i guess tml will be another day that will be unexpectable.. Nvm.. life's like dat.. Hmm.. now i realise.. perhaps, confiding in pple is nvr an option cuz u will nvr no how they will judge u.. SO it is best to keep things to urself n not end up being hurt despite pple having the wrong impression of u....... in the long term, onli real friends will stay while others leave without any words...... HAHAa......

HAppy biRthday tO suAT n fEli!!! WoOhOoo.....

sA is strong, nothing will beat her down...... nothing at all... everything that could have happened already have.. What's more? hhhhaaaaaaaaaaaa........ The sands are number'd that make up my life...

''When anger rises, think of the consequences'' --Confucius

i should really join back aikido soon to maintain the sense of peace.... I feel within me a peace above all earthly dignities, a still and quiet conscience........ I must be cruel only to be kind but bad begins, and worse remains behind..?

Farewell! the art too dear for my possession... Things meant to go, goO.. FLy away fast n far....... i detests pple doubting n insulting my integrity, my character cuz they know nothing at all.. sO stop all the comments.. Those reading my blog, go ahead n think all u want n be angry whatever... there are many things im talking about.. do not pinpoint...

My bloG, my Way, mY peRsonality..

Sow a thought, and you reap an act
Sow an act, and you reap a habit
Sow a habit, and you reap a character
Sow a character, and you reap a destiny

It's not my choice that anyone can cut in to tell me wat's right or wrong & judge me for all these... I have my restrictions due to several factors.. Think it's easy with such an environment, background? N don't think the only child is a spoilt one when one don't even have a complete family & financially abled...... Do i have to tell the whole world?

HAppy biRthday tO suAT n fEli!!! WoOhOoo.....

sA is strong, nothing will beat her down...... nothing at all... everything that could have happened already have.. What's more? hhhhaaaaaaaaaaaa........ The sands are number'd that make up my life...

''When anger rises, think of the consequences'' --Confucius

i should really join back aikido soon to maintain the sense of peace.... I feel within me a peace above all earthly dignities, a still and quiet conscience........ I must be cruel only to be kind but bad begins, and worse remains behind..?

Farewell! the art too dear for my possession... Things meant to go, goO.. FLy away fast n far....... i detests pple doubting n insulting my integrity, my character cuz they know nothing at all.. sO stop all the comments.. Those reading my blog, go ahead n think all u want n be angry whatever... there are many things im talking about.. do not pinpoint...

My bloG, my Way, mY peRsonality..

Sow a thought, and you reap an act
Sow an act, and you reap a habit
Sow a habit, and you reap a character
Sow a character, and you reap a destiny

It's not my choice that anyone can cut in to tell me wat's right or wrong & judge me for all these... I have my restrictions due to several factors.. Think it's easy with such an environment, background? N don't think the only child is a spoilt one when one don't even have a complete family & financially abled...... Do i have to tell the whole world?

For goodness sake did i said that the birthday is a trivial matter? for a weird reason of me not knowing dat u're not going to school n now u give me all these bull shit... n den telling me dat i'm throwing my temper..

i dun give a damn u see.. go ahead n cry.................
so whaat i don't get the basic facts of life right.. In the first place i dun have the basic life.. Dun think u understand everything and assume.. so what if allan is right.. He's so wise of cuz he is.. He's ALWAYS riGHTttt........... WHATEvaA.. N so what or whether or not i doing a survey anot..

YEE LI XUAN.. im v bu shuang n so what.. my face is black n so WAT.. i dun want to say it right at ur face bcux i can't be bothered to waste my energy n strength...... Believe it or not, im an escapist.. u happY? dat's how i make do with my life........ N YA.... u think i won't appear at geets hse? HAHAHAHA... im going to laugh my head's oOOffFFf

November 21
YES U R A BITCH!!!!!
ah ha.. i m so glad tt she noes she is a bitch.. nv in my life i m so angry wif a bloody classmate tt i cried like pure shit.. even benita also can't stand her.. n tt person is non other THEN lim siow ai.. wow man.. noW i finally realised tt wat allan said is right.. " stop acting like a child.. u will not improve as a person unless u get the basic facts of life right" at first i dun agree.. now i do.. u r not acting like A CHILD.. BUT A SPOILT one.. if u dun agree.. pls go around n ask other ppl.. go n do a survey on who likes u as a frenx.. i strongly encourage u.. go baby go..

n if u r reading this blog.. let mie tell u this siow ai.. listen up.. I DUN GIVE A DAMN BOUT U AT ALL.. show mie a black face for all u want tmr.. right at geetha's hse.. do i look like i give a damn? NO..

n this is no trivial matter.. getting everything ready n perfect for a bdae celebration for my frenx to mie is a very memorable occasion.. just imagine nobody give a damn bout u at all on ur bdae.. this onjly proves tt u r inhumane!!! if u dun wanna help.. den SHOO!! kao bei kia.. n i can swear to god tt i tried my very best to sound tt i m not ordering u.. if bu shuang?? cum n say it right at my face.. i m NOT an escapist.. if i m.. i would not have plan to even turn up at gayle's hse tmr..

n miss lim.. u better get these right into ur ear.. U SUCK.. u really do..

**SiGnING ofF**
U SUCK



PS: GREAt.. this is adapted from lixuan
hahaha.. nice right?!

whateva... call me a bitch, anything.. I can't be bothered.. so what if my tone is bad.. im like that to anyone.. sick n tired of all these....

don't think it's so great for u to do all these....... oh pls... why should u be bothered by such a trival thing... don't think dat u are the queen.. Last min call means have to.. Pple ask onli fed up.... AND DEN ORDER PPLE....! ENOUGH~

Marcus Aurelius said, 'Be not wordy nor a busybody.' He said this almost 2,000 years ago and he wasn't talking about you, but the advice holds on Monday and Tuesday. Communication is difficult (so be crystal-clear), and busybodies only create more confusion. Wednesday through Friday, when things simmer down and you're trying to impress a romantic interest, you might let a line or two of philosophy slip into your conversations. If the Roman Empire interests you, this weekend is perfectly suited to for-the-fun-of-it library research.

eNOUgh.. i said enough.. Do not bother me anymore.......................
I dun wan to be always the one letting in, taken advantaged of.........
JUsT let me be.........~ SHoOo

today we hiked 11.5km for 3 hours plus.... LOLXxXx....

PS_ why is everything so coincidence.. i hate it..

going jogging wif yong cheng n darrell tml..

Tml going macritchie reservior for hiking... ! YEAH! but not exactly happy.. DAT YONG CHENG.. SAY going Den Dun wan go liaO... GRrr... Ask me not to be angRY?>???

pple going==> sA, suat, ben, geet, feli, xuan, ling, ching, allan, fahmi, geok, kang.. HMmm.. ThAT'S about it...

ADIdAs attIRe=== bag, shoe, shirt, shorts, cap, watch, bottle, perfume... LOL?

GOING HIKING AT MACRICiTE ON FRIDAY!!! Did i SPELT WRONGLY? ARGH.. WATEVA.. Hmm.. what should we do for suat, feli n michelle's birthday...? HMMM........

PHYSICS OKIE!! !HAHAHAHHAAHAAAAAAAAA!! sciences at least give me a b3 or b4 of them ba.. DEN m l1 r5 can be less than 19 deduct by 4 marks le..

at least
eng -c5
humans- a2
science- b3
science b4
emaths a2
chi a1
L1R5---> 17... HOpEFulLy.. DEduct 4 marks=13! CAN CAN CAN!!!!????JIA YOU!

AMaths- manageable.. WAt can a normal failure expect? get a c6 i can smile, c5-laugh, b4 above- jump down building liao.. HAHAa.............. I ONLI STUDY A MATHS THIS MORNING.. IMAGine..

ok.. let me predict topics that will be coming out on thurs.. THankx to mr george bush, our exam is postponed to 9am..!!! WAAaaahaha.. but dat means lesser time to study chem.. -.-''' ok... 2 more days to freedom!!! HAHAHAa.. fri should i go school? HmM.. to pay the $12.50 for the co shirt.. LOLZ.. hmm.. Today was wearing sweater n pple asked if i were sick.. NAhz.. No.. Heehee.. jus dat amaths always give me shiver down my spine.. HHAaa..... saw thiam joo when noticed a person staring at me.. COuldn't recognise him with his spec~? YA... N today pretty lucky! didnt seE the person at all! YEAH!

-Quadratic functions
-Simultaneous equation
-Coordinate geometry
-Circular measure
-Trigometry
-Permutations n combinations
-Vectors
-Relative velocity
-Kinematics

Going hong kong in dec.. shall update again......... YEAH!!! but do i have time to look for jobs?

mum saw him jogging at canal with 2 guys.. who r they.. yuan kang? zhi chiaw? desmond? ARGH... wateva..............

YA... sAW EugEne boy... Grow so much alrdy.. AFter 2 yrs!? HmmM.. So CUte, SHUAi, TANnED....................!

Awards : Lifesaving 1, Lifesaving 2 and Lifesaving 3-> 10 sessions of 2 hours ($180)
Awards : Bronze Medallion & Cardio-Pulmonary Resuscitation ->10 sessions of 2 hours ($250)
Award : Pool Lifeguard ->6 sessions of 2 hours ($250)
Awards : Award of Merit and Senior Resuscitation ->8 sessions of 2 hours ($300)
Award : Distinction->6 sessions of 2 hours ($300)
Awards : Bronze Cross->4 sessions of 2 hours ($150)
Award : Silver Cross->4 sessions of 2 hours ($180)
Award : Patrol Lifeguard ->4 sessions of 2 hours ($180)
Award : Cardio-Pulmonary Resuscitation-> 7 hours ($61)
Award : Senior Resuscitation Award->6 hours ($125)
Award : Oxygen Resuscitation Award->8 hours ($180)
Award : Lifesaving First Aid Award->21 hours ($105)
Awards : Bronze Cross, Silver Cross and/or Patrol Lifeguard->3D/2N, 4D/3N or 5D/4N(From $380 onward )

FREAK FREAK FREAK...
SO UNLUCKY TO BE HITTED BY HIS BAG.....
AND HE RAN AWAY N HIDE BEHIND CHING WEI?!
I STILL TOT IS WHO
DEN THEY REVEALED IS HIM....
HUR HUR>> I WAS SO ANGRY N SHOCKED DAT MY EYES WERE HUGE N FACE TURN FIERCE.. WHO EVER iT IS dOEsn't maTtER..
WHAT PISSED ME OFF IS IT's HIM
FURTHERMORE.. I WANTED TO SCOLD IF IT's OtHERS.. BUT him? I DUN EVEN BOTHER TO WASTE MY ENERGY, SaLIVa, TIME tO dO ANYTHING..
PS: CHIng wei, i didn't say i will forgive him.. u said u no i will? I WON'T !!!!! GRrrrr........
ACTUally, im not so petty with a bag incident.. JUSt it so happened to be that person.... n he's so scarED That i'll dO sth to him?! IndEEd a runner i must say, in split seconds disappeaR..
When returning home, i shouted disgusting when we passed by his stop.. HAHAa.. HIs Junior who always sabo us was right therE.. MUAHAHaa.. n she looked who im referring to.. LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!! so HAPPY

LOL... Bio n Geo were manageable.. Make me sleep so little & Mood Swing.. Until i throw tantrum at mom.. HAiz.. n she's so nice to not sleep n let me sleep in the room with air con, buy hor fun at 9 plus cuz scare i hungry n buy protuguese egg tarts for me.. =)

Dreams r 2 b 4goten
reality to b lived
desires 2 b fulfilled
& destiny 2 b reached.
where it began.
where will it end.
H8 u.

A friend is a tissue when you can’t stop crying
A friend is a shoulder when you feel like dying
A friend always listens when you have something to say
A friend is a week when you just need a day
A friend is a crutch when you have a broken heart
A friend is some glue when everything falls apart
A friend is a sun when the rain just won’t stop
A friend is your mom when you run into a cop
A friend is a phone call when you can’t leave your home
A friend is a hand when you feel all alone
A friend is a wing if you want to fly
A friend understands without knowing why
A friend is an ear for a secret to tell
A friend is an aspirin when your head hurts like hell
A friend is a love that can never let go
A friend is you, and I wanted you to know:

LOVE UR FRIENDS N DONT HURT THEM.

A lover says,I will be with you in all your troubles”But a good friend says,You will have no trouble when i am with you ” & that’s me”

DIsGUSTIng..........

Im awake at this hour? YAWN...

GET OUT OF MY LIFE>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

s.s n emaths finally over.. jus to say my bearings forgot write 0 again.. stupid.. n theme 5 didnt come out.. lucky morning i study theme 1.. ROAR.. 3+2+4 pgz!

Hmmm... jux taking a break from studying.. tml is s.s n emaths p1.. Wa... 4 hrs interval between them.. Don't u think it's stupid..SO, i have to sleep early tonight.. CUz by the time ard afternoon, i'll fall asleep! HOHO........ still rmbered dat day azizul woke me up as i fell asleep in the library.. ROAR.... But he meant well with his wise advices.. It's no use studying so hard when u can't concentrate on the actual exam...

OK....... Yesterday went sakae sushi again... Spent 49 dollars plus..? ROar..... the membership card application is such a bother.. The condition is to spend $300 in 2 mths.. WAAAa.. How is dat possible?

ANyway... made alot of promises...... Have to go out with friends all dat after o.. I think after all, my savings will be gone soon... Shopping, chalets, outings, oversea trips... -.-'''

NOt to say, mum's out.. n she think i fully prepared for my examz.. YA.. i did.. but maybe i will get memory lost....... SO, i shall revise n recap again...

After o, i must lose weight.. HAHAaa............

I read someone's blog.. Quite surprised with what she said.. I can't imagine it.. Why my friends always treat me like dat.. Appear nice infront of me, helping me........ BUt actually in their heart, they don't really mean it? And i didn't ask for ur help in the first place.. As if i can't achieve that myself, RAaaAawK........... everything is jus an act... SUddenly, i feel this world is so unloving n cold.... WHy don't god just take everything altogether at the same time...? why did everything came in one after another.......

I cannot n dun want to trust anyone anymore........ EVerything freaked me out... I can't withstand it.... THE CRUELTY OF LIFE!

Went jogging in the morning..... MEt suat at chi garden den we jogged over there n reached at 6.30am.....in the end? we waited for half an hour cuz they misunderstood what we were saying......forget it..DEn we jogged home....suat used my labtop while i bathe n pack my bag
ltr, we went to market to meet karen n shi han for breakfast.......Hmm... den, when library
first to reach at 9.30, tot we were v kiasu..den saw azizul...he studied with us...den came yan rong n vic.. they kept disturbing shi han n indirectly us..? Hahaa....jus another table from us
ya.. and saw peng yi, looks v different compared to last time i saw....hmm..study until half mum called..said dat we have dinner at night...jus found the invitation? haha den went home early at evening n went wif our neighbour..bought a green towel dog at 2 bucks for charity
hmm.. spent 8 plus alrdy? mum onli gave me 2 dollars for pocket money
breakfast- 2.5
lunch- olive rice, 4
plus dat toy...2
omg........ my savings!
oh ya.. got a little girl so cute.. keep waving n smiling at me
n funny thing is.. got one old ahma.. didn't even rmb where she live.. lucky she met kind souls la.. HAHA!

Listen To Your Heart

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.

I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.

You've built a love but that love falls apart.

Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heartwhen he's calling for you.

Listen to your heartthere's nothing else you can do.

I don't know where you're goingand I don't know why,

but listen to your heartbefore you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.

They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,

the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

Listen to your heartwhen he's calling for you.

Listen to your heartthere's nothing else you can do.

I don't know where you're goingand I don't know why,

but listen to your heartbefore you tell him goodbye.

And there are voicesthat want to be heard.

So much to mentionbut you can't find the words.

The scent of magic,

the beauty that's beenwhen love was wilder than the wind.

Listen to your heartwhen he's calling for you.

Listen to your heartthere's nothing else you can do.

I don't know where you're goingand I don't know why,

but listen to your heartbefore you tell him goodbye.

Listen to your heart, mm-mmmmmm

I don't know where you're goingand I don't know why,

but listen to your heartbefore you tell him goodbye.

Went school for eng remedial.. saw dat stupid person.. n yupx.. tml early at 5 have to acc suat to run....... cuz she wants to experience the feeling running with a group of people........ ARGH..... Went library with karen n shi han.. before that, went co n ordered co tee.. N YA.. SO GLAD My green pen's with geetha.. HAaa.. G2 Eh.. If not gone liao.. n i dunno why m i so worried over a pen.. bcux of it, i msged so many pple..

More is less, less is more.. SImple is best.. LOLZ.. dat's what ms phua sayz.. Heehee... ALso, saw azizul, xiao ping n gae at library.. WOooHooo.. Reunite cuz of o levels man... talked to azizul for a long period of time.. N YUPZ......... Today's not as efficient as yesterday.. wonder why.. perhapz too much distractions.. TMl will be better.. going to do bio n geo!

did 2003,2004 e maths paper 1, anglican e maths paper 1... 2003 chem paper.....and revised organic chem, atmosphere chapt.... TOday saw peiling, sherman, xiao ping n shu fang at library.. gonna meet ms phua tml for eng.. got compo to write.. anyway.. ching wei organising a chalet man... WOAaa...

I'm totally disgusted......... YuCKZz.. can't believe it.. ARGH...

I DUN LIKE A**** T*** K** T****.... MUst I DECLARE TO the ENTIRE WORLD TO clEAr EVERytHIng Up......? can't tolerate....

HCL OFFICIALLY OVER! ARGH. I HatE CHI.. I sWeAR i dun wan taKe tAt if im going JC.. HAaaiz.. DIdn't finish my letter.. comfirm deduct 3 marks for format le.. CRAP!!!!!!!! ARGH.... give me a b4 at least.. i dun wan C6............

Wish me luCK for CHEM PRACTICAL TML BA~!

haiz... tml hcl exam.. HELP me.. dying...... later still got tuition.. so many homework waiting for me to complete in a couple of hours.. my god!

Good news for the past few days- PSI as low as 21! WOoHoooo.. I love mother nature.. HahaAHaa... today i must touch my mother tongue.. i sweaR!~ once for all, all for once.. That's it.. after the exam, i'll never ever touch chinese again......... Im going to throw those compo books away..

Well maybe now I should just say goodbye...
You used to be my friend...
But I never felt I really was yours...
So maybe this is the end...
I'm different from you...
You've never understood..
I hope that if I do tell you goodbye...
That it won't be for good...
Whenever I'm mad it hurts me so bad...
And you don't even care, I don't know why, I just want to cry...
And someday I won't be there...
They'll be there again and again.If I'm mad at you I'll hurt myself tooBut that doesn't really matter.... Although when I hurt I feel like dirt..... And my spirit's bruised and battered.. ..I do not know why it has to be so.. I really wish it did not.. But the way this has been going, You don't need me and we don't need we... And that's how I think I know why these words are the ones I have to speak-I love you, but goodbye.....

Losing A Piece Of My Soul

I came to you the hour I was in pain
Looking for answers, I cried to you in vain.

I shared the many skeletons hiding in my heart,
I knew then you'd be my friend,
I knew it from the start.

Troubles ran like rivers, flowing through my life,
You picked the pieces up and help me through my strife.

When home wasn't home to me no more,
You opened up your heart, and opened up the door.

We cried into night until the early morn.
We solaced each other's pain and shared our many thorns.

As time flew, the air grew thick,
I saw our friendship fading, and my heart grew sick.

The day had arrived,
When it was time to say goodbye.

Now I sit alone,
reminiscing the past I'd blown.

HHAAHaaaa........................ Today went to sch for phys remedial.. gave my friends the cute pink, blue octopus n dolphin soft toy.. HAhaaaz...spent me abt $40..

Anyway.. it's given to shan, suat, xuan, feli, geetha, michelle, ben, meiqi, joseph, allan...

AND BLOODY ASSS... jus becux i bring presents does it has to be his birthday..? stop giving those stupid comments.........

also......... guess wat.. i just wan to make u guilty.. didnt even wan to pass to u.. seeing u trying to stay far from me makes me even haPpy`...

one thing to declare: I DUN GIVE IT TO U N ONLY U ONLI.. SO DUN THINK U ARE THAT SPECIAL..!

deleted ur no. n yet u msg back to thank me.. de no. used to be familiar.. HAHAHA?
fEEL SOoo nice that u no that u dun deserve it at all..... HAHAHAHAHAaaa..... im evil right? but hey... remember.. im only nice to pple whom is good to me.....

N ya.. influenced by others? HAhaaa... i dun nid an useless friend who can't even make up his mind.. FORGET IT........ DISTANCE IS GOOD! NOT FOR NOW, FOREVER~!

n rmb, i still havent restore ur no, even the competition pic we took on my wall is torn down? i deleted everything... N..... HAaa.. msg again to wish good luck.. sick n tired.. though it's sent to others as well, it spoils my mood.......

today, studied in library with yongcheng, alvin they all..
then i pang sei awhile go co for fun.. HAhaa.. played the piano awhile.. anyhow though.. den play my cello all that.. haha.. mrs ng still say owe me present.. i miss the days when i have my ccas wif peers..

i got back to library to see yc, alvin they all being caught by ms phua.. hahaha..... den nvm.. go study on my own.. 5 plus.. izzat they all going le.. den Jo stayed back to accompany me.. HAha.. he's always so nice.. all along.. then we talked for 'awhile' until the school closing.. it was raining slightly then, den we talked abt our amibition all that.. HAHAa.......

something yc said today.. jo's so cute n tall while someone's short n ugly? lol.. perhaps he's joking.. but jo's definitely cute.. HAHAz..~


look forward to 2-5 chalet.............
n perhaps i'll join venture n be the first female over there.. join jo n shankar they all. HAHaha

The notion of a fairy tale ending? That's sth that i nvr wanted...... To think about it, perhaps i had given the wrong idea and impression right from the start.. i nvr tot the way u think it was.... i don't like u in the way i expect returns...

The thing is i was wrong all along.. we were never best friends.. perhaps it was one sided but why did u acted along? Things are not meant to be but making excuses for us to remain the same as friends? im sorry but i can't.. I can't tolerate all these.. Everything done, if u wan to make up, i don't think it's ever possible.. Money, material is not everything.. i tot i have a friend in u but well, perhaps to u, best friends are juz words that i say everyday.....

U provened to me that guy n girl can nvr be best friends... in my life time, i guess i will nvr have another best or even good best friends that're guys..... cuz eventually they would mistook everything....

N don't worry, i swear i will concentrate on my o's n nvr ever cling onto u..... cuz if i do, it would be one sentimental guy who would do anything for me at all cost n of cuz one whom i love.. not jus anyone, or let's say someone whom u have rumor with, someone u know for long, not any friend...

So, we'll be just like anyone else from now onwards.. if there's a need, i'll declare to the world that i don't like u n i'll stop all the nonsense.. we need a break... won't be total strangers but won't have the strength to be your friend anymore.. since u choose it that way, i respect it.....

the feeling of someone meaning the world to you but knowing u mean nothing at all is the worst of all.. but well.. this doesn't applies to us of cuz.. u r not the world to me, sA life will still be colourful without u..... i live not bcux of u n dun smile bcux of u.. If u became my friend n be there for me cuz u sympathise me? sorry but i don't appreciate it at all..

Im someone who couldn't handle any particular relationships, family, friends, or maybe love in the future... Maybe after all, like u said, i will nvr improve as a person if i don't understand the basic facts in life... Im childish i admit.. It's ok.. Everything comes to light n i can take it..... I'll never shed a tear over u ever again... cUx to me, u will be nothing.... everything concerned with u, deleted.. out of my view, out of my mind.. U, out of my life........

I was nvr a typical girl who yearns for a prince charming.... not cinderella, not snow white, little mermaid.. im not one who will go far for the one i love cux eventually everything comes to an end jus like our friendship.. if u ever think i did much, maybe it's jus my short term of liking, my temporarily assumption of doing so for my friend...

In my life, i aim to be a girl like tomb raider.. someone whom seek thrills, mysteries in life.. CUX IM NVR ONE WHO IS ABLE TO COMMIT MYSELF TO ANYONE... im one with blood flowing in 3mins.. san fen zong re du..... not exactly a flirt but one who doesn't worth spending time with......

LIFE is JUST a PROCESS.. GROwing uP is jus a STAGe... KnowIng pPle is JuZ a Scene.. FeELings are just woRds to mE.....

THere is no such thing as love in my vocabulary..... any form i mean.... i nvr ever felt it b4 until it's true.....

Friday, October 20, 2006

TOday's graduation day already....... HAIx.. SO SAD~
I will miss all of u

Bio practial- Unpredicable~.............

Wat a great satisfaction.. i snapped the bus 98 molester photo today! muahahhaaa.. i'll do sth abt it for sure.. IT's a pity that i didnt tot of taking a video at the moment in time.. HAIZ.. should have.. Im so stupid........

Anyway, went bugis to eat with mum after remedials.. hhaaa.. DEn went home slack abit.. Study all that.. HmMmm...... Then went library awhile.. Den go imm, jp.. Got three shoelace from minitoons, lemon tee.. yellow, orange & green.. HAHhaa.. hope gor will like them.. HHAHhaaaa...

Graduating soon.... HAIXXxx...... Getting separated le..... HmmM.. HOw sad.. i will miss you all...

TOday's world's egg daY! WoOtXx.... Our birthday too cuz it's GOd almighty birthday!~ AHAHaahaAa...

DIdn't go night class today la.. LAZY! N cuz afternoon spent some time at jp there... HAizzz.. Last day of school..... Abit emotional.... tml got remedial anywaY.. mr lau, don't be angry with us... sEe the face like sad sad one.. HAIx...

i didn't went for night class today.. OVerSlepT.... anyway... my arms felt crampy.. Cuz i got injections on both arms... FLu vaccination as well as the 2nd vaccination for the prevention of chicken poxs........ ARGHZ.. SIAN

I didn't went for night class today.. Wanted to but not inclined... gor's not going anyway... So i decided to go home and sleep.. Went to eat lunch with feli and suat, with the stall 7 uncle meeting us.. LOL... he was waving to us but we couldn't recognise him except suat.. guess he was wearing abit too formal.. He asked if we actually know that he's a taxi driver.. WEll.. we weren't aware of that.. N ahaha.. agree with suat.. the uncle should have knew me n feli more than her yet we were the ones who can't identify him.. n yupx.. we had our yakulT! niCE!

Ok.. i went library yesterday after dinner with dad... ACtually helping suat to get her bio soln but it was still sold out.. Haix.. thinking about it.. my adidas bag.. WEll.. told geok woon to pay me a badge.. at any cost.. LOL.... HmmMm.. oK.. Did my s.s revision yesterday.. not bad la.. but i hate the conflict chapter.. i forever can't get wat it's talking about... n i guess i got pms..

TOday's weather isn't as good as yesterday.. Haix.. How sad.. i wanna declaRE
I LOVE MOTHER NATURE.. NATURE GREENERy...!
can my wish be realized.............?

HOw do i live without you.. How do i breathe without you.. HAix... FIR tian tian ye ye the song is so nice~ my mp3 is playing it again and again repeatedly.. Nvm but im not crazy.. Perhaps it's becuz i was rather blue these few days.... Surge of emotions.. Can't believe im actually that sort of person....

Mid autumn festival.. What a grand finale.........` Everything that happened on that day marks a great significant value in our heart, ExtRaOrdinARy class 4-5.....

How do i live without you

how do i live without you
i want to know
how do i breathe without you
if you ever go
how do i ever
ever survive
how do i how do i
oh how do i live

当你的手还握在我手中
没有一次
我还停留
说不出口的感动
当你的手还握在我手中
灿烂的笑容
不论过多久
都让我心动

每一天在你的怀里等待
每一次我感觉你的存在
不能重来
不愿离开
是永远都灿烂的爱

每一天在你的梦里等待
每一次我感觉你的存在
so how do i live
how do i live
how do i live
without you

当你的手还握在我手中
没有一次
我还放手
没有一次
停留
当你的手还握在我手中
灿烂的笑容
不论过多久
都让我心动

oh tell me now

how do i live without you
how do i breathe without you

4-5 mid autumn festival celebration

Those who came would have knew that we really had a great time.. 4-5.. The first ever outing that is so fun.. It's a pity that ms phua couldn't join us.. Hmmm.. i shan't describe what happened.. Feelings beyond descriptions... Who wants the photos tell me~! HAhaa... Anyway.. the atmosphere is so there n yupz... soO haPPy!

Create Your Own!

l1r 5 19 after moderation...... phew...... improve 15 grades.. WOOOOOOAAAAAAAA.............. 34 during mid yr!

L1R5 ===> 20 for prelims.. How little.. -.-'''

how great...... im now an extremist abt eat less, exercise more.. LOL!!!!!

i can't stand it.. wat am i jealous about.. STUPID........

tml last paper
so happy
den go shopping at marina square wif girlz
yEa
can spend more time wif bro liao..
yEaHZ
Wait for me
i'll be a better friend
won't care & hesitate no more..

was supposed to get flu vaccination.. but there wasn't supply.. It's ok & so mum consult the doctor instead.. i drank my almond milk tea mAn.. YEaa.. HAHa.. n met thiam joo on the way home? after that i went canal there and ran 2 rounds..... was like rather bloody now.. my face i mean.. n i saw someone who rather resembles allan? Hmm.. but now im sure it wasn't him cuz he's at the library.. -.-''' HAHAAAAAAAaaa

YEAH!!!!!!! Bio ROXxxxxxx

YEAH!!! MY ENG N S.S IS GOING TO BE DONE WELL!!!!! WAHAHAHA.. ENg GOt repeated topic.. FEAR~! HHAHAa.. At least got more confidence n i gave eGS!!!! WWHAHAHaha.. n venice didn't come ouT !! so HAPPY.. i must score in essay cux sbq not really GOoD? Emaths.. Hmm.. let it be.. it's oVER.. WHAHAHAAHA~~~!

now im happy......... i studied biology! muaha.. must get distinction for that.. my most confident science.. HAHA.. tml exam until 4pm.. HOW SIAN

yesterday met ms phua at je wif her husband n this morning mr lee kok leong waving at me at my hse hawker centre? my god..................

going chem prac later.. sian.. anyway.. went jogging with suat kee earlier this morning..... went to the adventure park climb 3 pyramids... lols.. cuz we want to see some writings.......

Tml should i go for donation act? MAYBE~.......

just came back from jog.... went to jurong west market to help mum with her groceries.. N yupz..... atE that stupid nasi lemak which i got scolded from.. YUX.. WAT AN ATTITUDE STALL HOLDER...... F***... dun sell if u don't bother......

this morning almost late for school.. tot it's supposed to be 9am when i knew it's 8am.. Switched my alarm to 7.55 instead of 7.. DOT........

Took the bus where i met the 3/4 guy..... dunno wat's his name.. HaiXxxxxxx.... i shall ask jeannine or sth.. SHIT.......

Old com is sent for service.. MUAHAHAa... now my table only got labtop n printer..SO EMPTY.. LiKe the FeELinG!!!

Oh my god, allan got a high fever since yesterday.... HMmm.. thinking of that, it has been long since i didn't get a fever alrdy.. n i'm getting a flu vaccination?

haix.. was so tired.... onli had 3 hrs of sleep.. as for allan, he got less than an hour? Hmmm.... so sad that i only help out with the poem & teachers' abc thing...... He got to finish up the rest... n it continued until 5 plus? woa....

reached school at 6.25...... was supposed to meet him outside the sc rm to complete the video.. But he hadn't turned up.. Then came feli, ching wei, fahmi.. N so when it's nearing 7, i suggested to go jurong park find him.. Fahmi n i really did wanted to jog over.... But in de end half way there, fahmi said it's not logical... cuz the video won't be with him anyway if we found him.. SO we decided to find him bag..... but still it was in vain.. Finally decided to call him up instead of waiting for his reply.. Aha... his maid said he was on his way over....

oh my god..... he overslept.....

ok.... ya.. then was at the busstop.. suat came before him.. den ya... lucky the video was done.... pheW~ wat a relieff.... dunno wat will the class do if it's not... haix..

den was a so call assembly, the most caring teachers award thing.. den the lessons conducted by students.....

Den i suddenly remember something... didn't ask if peng fei is coming back.. HAaiz.. lost his hp no... wat a pity...........

n yAa........ we went to find the teachers to give them our presents... WOwOWWwwwwwwww, it's rather a trouble.......

I didn't like the concert part except for the teachers one..... mr low rockz~!

wAHAHaa... i dunno why im so happy........ but the fact that i go back primary sch but not much of my sch pple n none of my teachers' kind of bring me down..... HoW sAD

im so so tired after shopping for 2 hrs.......... i tot i was dead....... buy presents for 8 teachers.. WOa.. HeaDache.. n we spent the time turning round circles........
great.. i still got some wrapping to do for the ones left unwrapped... The video in the end haven't start... until we decided to go j.e mac..... not even 1/4 done? going to do it now n hopefully i can help for quite abit.........

im so so tired after shopping for 2 hrs.......... i tot i was dead....... buy presents for 8 teachers.. WOa.. HeaDache.. n we spent the time turning round circles........
great.. i still got some wrapping to do for the ones left unwrapped... The video in the end haven't start... until we decided to go j.e mac..... not even 1/4 done? going to do it now n hopefully i can help for quite abit.........

WOa.. the promise was not broken yesterday.. Made me happy till i can't control my laughters...... And the sticker's on the calculator!!!! =)

Tml going national library most probably.. GLAD!

Allan is so so so li hai.. 1hr 40 mins for 21km run!!!!! omGg^^

Saw the SAfra army half marathon advertisement on newspaper and told mum that allan's going for the run.. And guess wat she said, '' why you never go run with him?''

-.-''' I'm not up to it.. somemore, im not an athlete...... I'll be the last if i ever go.. Ahaha.. actually if i were to go, i will only consider the MILO one.. which is 6km.. 21km is surely not for me..! ARGH.... anyway.. in 20 mins time, the registration will ends..... LOLZxx...

If there aren't many pple, maybe i'll consider to go and support.. But the route is very weird too, so it's like wasting time over there..... HAhaa... anyway.. it's too early.. im a pig, can't wake up in such early hours..

Argh.. suat just replied....... They had made the cookies yesterday.. GrrRr... My god.. i didn't mean to pang seh... Help...

GOing for tuition in 2 hrs time, jw branch.. oh well.. Matthew's going reservice....... AHAaz... wisH him all the best den.. Hmm...... i was trying to blog the harry potter music video.. but it's still not up yet?

TOmorrow will be SaFRa haLf maRathon aRmy run LE... 21km.. ALLAN ALL THE BEST~~~~~!!!!!!!!!! ALso, thiam joo, Jian yong, ALvin & YuxIang.. Those who going to run jia YOu!! caN't go & suppoRt, tOo eArlY & weiRd.. lOL

63.4kg.. im so fat....... the weight i measured at gym yesterday.. SIANZZZZZZZ.. HELP ME FROM MY FATNESSS!!!

Hi! im back with my blog....