Felt totally dumb.. don't know if im day dreaming or just can't concentrate.. mind is in a whirl.. argh.. imagine not noticing to do a certain procedure at a beginnning when u already proceeded to step3.. the word 'STUPID' just come straight into my mind.... and to imagine that i have already did this last time even traumatised the effect... and the worst thing is to actually trying to dry an agarose gel with tissue paper.. with no barrier in between! ha. the the mock dna sample smerged right into it.. how dumb can i get.... the worst nightmare was to see the agarose gel having poka dots. then i panic, but it later disappeared when i removed it from the tissue....... think i imagine too much that i start seeing things......

Things haven't been good, not trying to complain or confide to anyone too much cuz i'll get consoles which will only stress me up.. Seriously, i don't feel good.. don't remind me to do better, tell me i can do it, too much..... cuz that's only going to deter me from proceeding and lower my morale.. have smart people around me whom by right should influence me to be like them.. but then i can't.. im not like that.. my IQ and EQ are getting lesser and lesser..... i think im retarded..... Bad in academics- slow in grasping concepts, slow in doing stuff, slow in everything.. even running.... now everything comes down to zero.. feel so empty.... everyday i reach home, i feel lethargic.. well.. it's not the place that matters.. it's the way my body react no matter if i did or not exercise that day.. even if im super relaxed, i still feel tired.. well.. the timing is often around evening 6 plus.. don't ask me why.. i don't no the reason.. im like that since secondary school.. even if im not physically exerting.. people whom i did projects, night studying with will know..I'll be RESTLESS ........

okie... for the EQ part, i don't know why im like so cold blooded.. can't express my feeling of happiness or whatever too much.. or even further going on the conversation.. if i offended anyone, i anticipated it.. but then, just not being anti social..... i need my own time off.. me myself and my own.......











Sher Jie ran 4.55mins yesterday for 1500m.. good job.... his pb if im not wrong..
Today Allan's running.. hope he make it to top5 for 5000m.. or even top3 if i don't underestimate him..