Cried the fourth time in sch since start of the year.. First time, Mr Chan's apology.. Second one, at Meet the parents when i almost had to quit x country cuz i can't cope studies.. Third, im too busy n worried abt my Dad's condition that my life's in a rush, currently still.. FOurth, today, i failed my Bio test.. ALso, Chem test will be another one.. Again, my chem prac is in a total mess..... Am i going to be trapped in this terrible cycle? I don't want to retain... the feeling of not knowing the information when studied but forgot, stunned n panic at the instant of time is terrible....

Why am i so emotional, easily affected.. I feel so weak.... Whenever im confronted, i feel tiny n scared.... And then before i know it, my tears whelmed up n i break apart... Save me....